Forever

"I shall live forever,
Forever young."
She spoke a white flag, and placed it in my palm; the very last kiss
That stole my breath… and more,
Pulled out of my heart the piece (/peace) she gave me
Once, so long ago and not long enough
And the harder I tried to hold on, the more she was not mine…
I lost her to time, when all I wanted was forever; she left me bitter
With promises that she would live- while I can only imagine that I will die,
Little by little, piece by piece… day by day…

She is my goddess, I promised to myself- and she is Kali.
And she is Shiva. She is the sun granting me light, the God that formed me; the whole of my soul…
On earth; she is forever!
I see her face in every beauty. I still laugh when I think she would…
And I remember every detail, and I cry.
Why is goodbye
The most tragic hello…?

When the world was young, and it was just you and me;
Waking in a field of dreams, I saw your smile for the first time…
A secret only you and I shall ever know.

When she breathed, I lost my breath. She spoke, and I lost my words; I could only gasp and gulp as she backed into a doorway of blinding light; squinting as her form lost shape and turned into a shadow, and her shadow into the light. Brilliant, blinding light- the door closed with a click; and around me…
There was darkness…

I walk the streets of shadows, without an angel.

There is no one that loves you more.

I fall asleep crying; and I feel her arms around me, they hold nothing but despair. I wake up wishing for a dream to save me- and when I wake up I know there is nothing that can save me. I pray to the dead… let the memories sustain me.

I spackle the (w)hole with your empty promise.
For me, you will live forever…
Forever young.

She was always the sun. I am always the moon.